I love the word "fate"

I... Love the word "fate"

It means everything has a meaning,
Even evil has a meaning

It means there is no evil done for evil's sake
Even evil has a meaning

It means harsh things, meetings, encounters, people
They are and will never be alone,

I... Love the word "fate"

It does not restrict freedom,
And does give hope.

"Fate" is almost as powerful as "hope" is.

¿Isn't it interesting?

How fate can be such a hatred word

For people who curse their own fates,
without searching for the meaning
For people who "fate"
Has the same nature as "evil"...

...Fate is not evil

Nor is it hopeful.

Fate is invisible for those who don't see it
But will certainly exists for those who belief in it

"Fate" is not carved on a stone
But is similar to an apple

No... More likely to an apple tree

The moment the seed is buried
And hope is sealed within it
Genes already have determined
What future will do with it

But the apple tree is not alone
The young apple tree may grow
May bloom
May perish
But never alone.

The sole fact is on the same planet as us
Gives us a connection to it.

"Fate" means "not forlorn"
"Fate" means "someone"

"Fate" means... "to live",

Even thought that apple tree has had no one
Young people will appear
And will eat his fruits, and thank him.

His fruits may even give birth to another apple tree
And be the start of an apple paradise

But that's not written on its seed...

... I love the word "fate"

Cause thanks to it...
I was able to live
Fate gave me this apple tree
And this apple tree gave me fruit
For no more than a bit of water
From a near river.

...I love the world... Fate gave me.

Heart

Every... Everyone has it

This heart, is not mine alone

However, from time to time, everyone hides it

Why is it, I don't know

The case is that... I found it. This heart's true power, and identity

Everyone has it, but just someones can let it out

To be or not to be hurt, it is why this heart shall or not shall be let gone out

But I can... I can protect it

To protect is to understand the truth and use your own heart, mind and soul to shield it, so that it can be passed onto people

This heart not mine alone is another truth. But everyone thinks is no more than another lie

A sweet truth to children, a rude lie to adults

So then... Why am I an adult and heart remains as truth to me....

Why does the heart's way

Shall always be the harsh way?

The non-attended birthday party

So let's resume a bit the situation.

Today it was a friend's birthday party, but I didn't go. I haven't gone in all these 3 or 4 years that my parents have been divorced, as I always spent half-July and almost full-August at my father's home, really far away from where I use to live with my mother (like 1000 km far more less). So even though I though that fact was almost made really clear, I was included in a group for organizing this birth-day party.

As I wasn't even going to be able to go, I really did ignore a lot this group. I mean, I'm not really into Whatsapp, so most of the time is just annoying... You know, just doing something and then get a new message from a 20 people group from where you just know 10 people and the other 10 are completely strangers, but they just keep on talking most of the time ignoring that you're even there. Which is great! They get able to chat and then I just have to have a look to all the messages in order to know if there are any important news, and just say something from time to time to not be just a phantom in there.

But this time was different. I'm really extroverted with nearly-everyone, but just if I al least know something about them, but this group really had like 8 people I knew nothing of, so I just ignored. I really thought that someone would say something like: "But isn't him with his father now? He won't be able to come." And that was all. But nope. 

I'm a bit awkward in some things, and one of those is that I HATE having people telling me what to do or just having to follow some rules in order to be ok with people. I'm more like the kind of person that will always be there, but you'll first have to knock in the door, as it is really difficult for me to go out. Is not that I don't want, it is just that my personality is that way, you know. For me, it is really unnatural to start a conversation with just a "Good morning" and nothing to say apart from that. I think that's just useless, completely useless, and I really get on my nerves while having a "hello-hello-how are you?-Great and you?-Fine as well, thanks" or kind of that. 

So as I said before, after having been in that group like for... A week? No one said that. All my other friends already knew it, but this kind of "main group of friends" really had no idea. 

It was just so wow. I mean, This group has like 2 or 3 years, and for a teenager that's kind of a lot, and yet no one remembered it, or was just waiting for me to say it.

In fact, I said nothing not because I wanted to wait for them to say it, but just because I barely read Whatsapp, is not like I say "let's not read whatsapp!"- With an evil smile. Is just that I don't know, is it really that strange?

Anyway, today, my closest friend from that group said something like "you're going to say that you're with your father, and therefore not able to come, are you?" With this type of almost coercing tone, and I was just like "but what do you want me to say, isn't it clear, you know?" And so.

So at this very moment, they must be at the beach. I just keep on studying Greek subject, and up to now I haven't said anything in that group. Not because I don't want to, is more like I don't feel like doing it.

From the start, that group of friends is really strange, as it mingles very different types of people. We are 6 girls and 4 boys. From that 6 girls, they've got also a separate group just for them six, so they must seem really unite, but the truth is that there are 2 best friends (Tere and Maria, from who Tere is kind of the leader of the group, always organizing things, and Maria is more the "average girl", but a really funny person as well), one lovely girl who is also near friend of them two (Marina), another little but cute anyway girl who is extremely pessimistic and always talking about bad things and the other 9 in the group trying to reassure her somehow (Marta), but even so she's not very in touch with the first 2 best friend pair and talks more with the lovely girl. Another girl is more like of clumsy, I don't mean she's always falling down but she's just a bit... Limited? In a good way, it's a really nice person, and really really cute (Teresa), and the last of them is Paula, who has gotten lately into some discussions with them and is the more "different" person, I think, she loves american series and heavy and rock music, whilst the others are more kind of pop-lovers.

This differences in music styles really make a huge difference between them. Tere loves Maroon 5, Maria loves Taylor Swift, I don't know what does Marina likes nor what does Teresa but Marta adores Imagine Dragons, and Paula loves Red Hot Chili Peppers, Metallica, Nirvana, etc.

So from the boys, we are on one side Ale and me, continuing with the music description Ale loves Lady Gaga and I just love a lot of japaneses music, being Mami Kawada my favourite singer (It's really common that you don't know her, no one knows her. Someday I'll make a post talking about her, I promise) and I also like Paramore, not enough for being a parawhore but well. On the other side, there are Puti and Molu, both are called the same real name, Pablo, but casually both had gotten nicknames, and about them I don't really know much, sorry.

Basically, this group is some kind of a fruit salad, it's delicious when you have all the ingredients, but if not, you must put together ingredients who get on well. You cannot mix just some rice with some carrot, but if you add a bit of lettuce and some omelet, ham, green peas, and a bit of soy sauce, you'll have a really nice recipe for an delicious rice. But just mixing omelet with soy sauce will not taste well. 

Out of that example, I would be the lest-fitting in ingredient, as my personality and hobbies (anime, visual novels and a bit of gaming) is not shared with anyone of them.

That has made me have a bit of an out-of-place feeling, but well, I'll have to live with it. 

I think that after this birthday party I'll have a bit of an argument with the whole group, but well, it's not really the first time so I'll try to apologize and make things go smooth.

Have I done well? Haven't I? This post has been far too long? Enough? Short?

See you!

Starting the blog: FAQ

Ok, so today, I think will be a really great day.

This is not at all my first blogger page, but this is one I would love to keep and maintain. "This time, this will really be definite" - How many times had I already said that? Well, anyway...

So... For the first blog, I had thought about a FAQ. Those Frequented Asked Questions that I hope someday will be asken and I will have to keep on repeating the answers. Okay, here we go:

First off: Why creating an English blog even though English is not my first language?

While I was walking down the street, on this very day, I thought a lot about this blog, I have so many projects and things I would love to talk about... Eventually, I would like someone to comment here, and just discuss with normal people about my thoughts and other people's thoughts. As you may know, Spanish is spoken in the Iberian Peninsula as well as in great part of South America and Central America, but that was not sufficient. English is spoken by lots and lots more of people, not just limited to some territories, but worldwide, so I thought: "If what I say has really got the power to make people just stop for to take a look around them, and find all that... Magic, that permeats this world. If just they could... Use it to help others."

2.- Why creating yet another blog? What is it going to be about?

Well, as I've said before, I've also got 2 other blogs, one in Blogger, another in Wattpad. The first is for nearly everything, whilst the second one is more for stories to let a bit my imagination go free without any objective (most of the stories are just crap so just don't have it in your mind a lot).

Up to now, I've got two non-purpose blogs so I came up with the idea of a more serious blog, yet "serious" is not the word. I love to thing really deeply about everything. "Why do we, humans, do this thing this way and not this other way?" Is the kind of thinking I'm always having, so I'll reflexionate about it here.

2.5.- Why not doing it in other blogs?

Because the others are focused on those stories and less-phylosophical/deep thinking, so it would really ruin the easy-to-read atmosphere they've got.

Moreover, this blog will also be some kind of a challenge. Deep thinking in your first language is easy, but I'm aiming to be able to (maybe?) Be able to give some speech about this, and really have the capability of changing the world somehow.



To that purpose, I need people to understand my ideals and to discuss them. You know, no one is completely right, nor completely wrong. This may sound a bit kind of... Arrogant? Many of you should be thinking "What the fuck is this little kid with no more than 17 years old is saying? Changing the world? Don't mess around and just have your feet in reality, won't you?"

But you know, those are the kind of people I would love them to read my blog. I would love to discuss about all kinds of things with them. To make them show me if I've said something with no sense, and I'll be glad to do the same thing with them.

I think I've got nothing else to say, so I'll end here this first post. If you like this post/blog be sure to check from time to time for new posts! Thank you!